If someone had said to me 18 years ago that this is the kind of work that would light me up, I would have told them they were nuts.
I was just starting my career as a sales representative, with plans to move up the corporate ladder and eventually retire with the same company.
The “American Dream”, right?
Over the years, I moved through various parts of the organization including Corporate Training, Sales & Marketing, Management, Strategy, and multiple Account Management roles. Tasked with building teams and developing people within those teams, I had found a way to take the competitive spirit I’d developed from a lifetime of playing sports, into a full-time role in big pharma.
I FELT UNSTOPPABLE.
My passion and drive to succeed seemed to make moving up each step of that corporate ladder both relatively easy and logical.
I realize now that I was following the path others were creating for me. I always had a pull that there was something more, something else, something different I was meant to be doing and just assumed the next step on that ladder was it.
At 32, a promotion required a move from Pennsylvania, where I’d lived all my life, to the west coast. I didn’t know anyone in Southern California, and had only been there a few times for work trips. Not knowing the area, not knowing where I’d live, and having zero friends or family there, I packed up my dog and off we went to start a new adventure.
I threw myself into work determined to be the best, to be successful.
Fast forward a few years and three more job roles, I found myself feeling overworked, totally unhappy and unfulfilled. The career that had offered me so much - that I had seemed to love and devoted so much time and energy to - all of a sudden felt meaningless. I felt disconnected and dissatisfied.
MY DETERMINATION HAD BEEN MISDIRECTED AND I CONTINUED TO SPIRAL.
I ended up totally neglecting my own well-being because I thought success would only come after a ton of sacrifice.
Working all the time, eating poorly, and drinking too much (one glass of wine turns into half the bottle, then the whole bottle, very quickly)... I was not getting enough sleep and definitely not enough exercise.
All this led to multiple, and quite serious, health issues.
After seeing doctors and specialists and uncovering food allergies I didn’t know I had, I knew I needed to make some serious changes to my lifestyle.
THIS WAS THE BEGINNING OF MY TRANSFORMATION.
"Fast forward a few years and three more job roles, I found myself feeling overworked, totally unhappy and unfulfilled. The career that had offered me so much - that I had seemed to love and devoted so much time and energy to - all of a sudden felt meaningless. I felt disconnected and dissatisfied."
I changed my diet, started working out with a trainer, and made my well-being a priority.
On my 35th birthday, I competed in my first NPC BodyBuilding completion and was in the best shape of my life.
This was the first leap off the traditional path that had seemed to make so much sense… It was the first step in me discovering me.
But then I started crying. All. The. Time.
Still feeling like I was in the wrong place and definitely not spending my time in the ways I wanted to.
So much that I couldn’t read the text on my computer screen.
While driving one day, I could not see the street signs so I immediate booked an appointment with my optometrist - thinking my prescription needed to be changed. However, the problem was only that my tear ducts were clogged.
This was my inner turmoil manifesting… My vision had become so blurred.
Again realizing something needed to change so I could stop saying, “I hate when work gets in the way of what I really want to do.”
I really needed to figure out, what do I want to do?
What really makes me happy?
How should I measure success and happiness?
This path that I was on wasn’t cutting it anymore.
REAL SHIFTS STARTED TO HAPPEN.
"Some serious soul searching brought me to the truth that the times when I was most happy and most fulfilled, the times when I felt most proud, were not the times I achieved success, but the times when those who I was working with did."
I had an undeniable desire to do more for a really long time.
Some serious soul searching brought me to the truth that the times when I was most happy and most fulfilled, the times when I felt most proud, were not the times I achieved success, but the times when those who I was working with did.
When I saw people that I was mentoring reach their goals - whether it was a promotion, long-term goal, or simply when the light switch would go off in their mind and they “got it” - those were the moments that made my heart smile.
I was starting to get it.
FROM CRYING MY EYES OUT TO MAKING A REAL CONTRIBUTION.
I had secretly been thinking about coaching for almost two years before even talking about it!
Self-doubt, fear, and a feeling that I should just be happy with what I had, held me back for too long.
It had gotten to the point where I couldn’t push down and dismiss what was pulling at my mind, body and spirit.
I FINALLY FOUND MY ZONE OF GENIUS.
The ability to partner with others and support them as they move towards a balanced life and bigger career success, while allowing me to do the same, is a dream come true and feels so right.
I was drawn to Ontological Coaching specifically because it’s about the whole person, who you are BE-ing.
It’s not about just coaching a specific skill or behavior or just one area of your life, but about coaching around who you are at your essence, or core, and being purposeful in coming from that place in every area of your life.
LIVING THE DREAM.
Spending my days collaborating with people to create the big, beautiful life of their dreams - where real success and fulfillment springs from true happiness and joy - is what I was meant to do.
6 FUN FACTS ABOUT ME
I adore travel and have been to over 20 countries and have visited all but three states in the US. Happy to have had the experience of studying abroad and loved living in Spain. I am physically unable to say no when asked to go on a trip.
I’ve played sports all my life - anything involving a stick and a ball, skiing on both water and snow, SUP - and have proudly represented Team USA as a member of the Women’s Ball Hockey Team three times (this year in Bermuda).
In California, I found a love for weightlifting and in the last three years, I’ve competed in five body-building competitions - placing in every one and winning my last competition, which qualified me for pro level competition!
Serving a delicious homemade meal is pure love for me. As for dessert, ice cream is my weakness... Even better when I’m spoiling my nieces and nephew with a few scoops.
I’ve been in a relationship with the same dog, a puggle named Yogi, for over 15 years. Whoever said you can’t buy love has never owned a dog.
I have 3 mottos: DON’T MISTAKE MY KINDNESS AS WEAKNESS, BACON IS THE PIXIE DUST OF FOOD (sprinkle it on anything and it makes it better) and IF IT SCARES YOU, IT’S PROBABLY SOMETHING YOU SHOULD DO.